LOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE IN

LOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE IN

I look up to the ceiling and the worlds spinning around

I’m screaming for your voice but there’s not a sound

Can’t sit still can’t sit down, I’m out of place

Like the sadness of a scared clown from outer space

Where can I be how can I belong,

Feeling like a punch line in some crazy song

Where am I at why am I here, people walk through me

Like I’m not even here, they can see right through me

I’m a door mat in a world of fear, can I be normal can I be sane

Why can’t I find the way back to that guy again,who I used to be

Back to the time when I was so proud of me

the Choices I made so long ago have taken me away from the man i used to be who I am I i'm no longer me

I wonder can people see me or am I already gone

maybe thats why i'm barely moving along

time means nothing to me just a tick of the clock

what am I waiting for , could it be that final knock

I feel myself coming closer to reaching that other world

and when we get there can we still be who we were

how will we know when our day comes

or are some of us already done

WHERE WERE YOU

 WHERE WERE YOU
 Where were you when I hit rock bottom

Falling to the ground, I’m crying out loud

Where were you because you were never around?

You say you love me and care what happens

How can you when it all starts with understanding

Where were you when I wanted to take my life?

Couldn't you hear me, I called for you night after night

Like a  so called friend your  nowhere to be found

Where were you when she left me in the cold?

Are we really friends? if the story had to be told

but when you’re in a jam  now I’m your BFF forever

When you need me is the only time we get together

I stand outside your home calling your number

I ask for your help because I've hit rock bottom

And you say you wish you could help me

 But you’re out of state down in Stockton

And you get the hang in there I’m praying for you

And by the way any chance you 100 I can barrow

I’m really in a bind and if you said yes how he miraculously

Made it back home in an hour, but still can’t help you maybe next time

Where were you when they passed out real friends?

A one who would give everything and be there in the end

Everyone needs a BFF is there any truly left

ON THE OTHER HAND

 ON THE OTHER HAND
I WILL NEVER BE THE ONE

WHO LETS YOU DOWN

I’LL NEVER SAY A WORD

 AND YOU WILL NEVER HEAR A SOUND

YOU’RE MY WEEKEND FLING

WHO PULLS MY STRINGS

 SHE THINKS I’M OUT WITH THE BOYS

MY LONELINESS IS WHAT KEEPS ME COMING AROUND

I’LL DO WHAT EVER YOU WANT

YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE TO ASK

I’LL GIVE YOU A HAND

I WANT TO BE YOUR GOOD TIME MAN

BUT I WON’T DO THAT

ON THE OTHER HAND

IS THE REASON WHY

SHE WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND

I’M YOUR GOOD TIME MAN

AND OUR GOOD TIMES GOODBYE

I CAN’T LEAVE HER AND THE KIDS

 THEY ARE MY WORLD

LETS BE HONEST YOUR JUST A GOOD TIME GIRL

TIMES WERE GOOD AND WE HAD LOTS OF FUN

YOU COULDN'T DO HALF THE THINGS SHE DONE

SHES PUTS UP WITH MY DRINKING HABIT

BUT IF SHE KNEW ABOUT YOU SHE WOULDN'T HAVE IT

IF I HAD TO CHOSE BETWEEN YOU AND HER

I’D RATHER GO BACK TO THE THINGS WERE

YOUR JUST A MIDLIFE CRISIS

THAT I’M GOING THROUGH

ON THE OTHER HAND

MEANS MORE TO ME THAN YOU

SORRY THE SONG IS OVER AND OUR DANCE IS THROUGH

IT’S TIME TO PICK PARTNERS AND IT AINT WITH YOU

 I HEAR HER CALLING, AND I GOT TO GO

CAUSE THIS IS ONE DANCE SHE CAN NEVER KNOW

I CARE FOR YOU

 I CARE FOR YOU

In another world

You were a different girl

I care for you

There’s nothing I wouldn't do

I’m going to be there for you

Through thick and thin

I’d give it all up for you

 To the bitter end

I’ll carry you

From the ends of the earth

To get you back to the way you were

Giving a chance I’d do it again

Baby doll, hold your head up now

And let your heart unwind

Hang in there girl just give it some time

Do you remember back when?

 When you fell to the ground

I picked you up

Cause I’ll never let you down

No matter where you are

Day to day and Time to time

Where your gone and just how far

I got yours and you got mine

Baby doll, hold your head up now

Only your heart can find

A love true as mine

Hang in there girl

 And the truth you’ll find

you are my world

 That Anywhere you go

Anything you’ll see

 You’ll never find A love so true

Are you in love with me

 o

THREE THEN THERE WAS TWO

THREE THEN THERE WAS TWO

You remember hanging with me and tony

You were so scared you cried out for mommy

We snuck out at the brisk of dawn

And we got grounded for life

When our parents found out we were gone

Upon a treasure hunt at miller cave and beyond

The only thing we caught was poison ivy

It was contagious you gave it to me

The three of us stuck out like a sore thumb

When you’re young everything we done was dumb

But after all we never hurt anyone

Me and tony both had a crush on you

And I still can’t believe some of the things we used to do

You picked tony I knew I never had a chance with you

Tony had the look that all the girls liked

He broke a different ones heart every night

I picked up the pieces as they fall

You were the hardest piece of them all

I know you loved him through it all

But Tony was Tony and it never came up again

He broke her heart, and let me down

And should have never let this begin

He knew I loved her that’s why he let her go

But she didn’t love me that he didn’t know

I never told her that’s why he moved on

But in reality he was her one and only

She moved away because her dad got a job

But I know it was because she had a crazy uncle named BOB

Who got to friendly with the younger kids?

I seen her a couple years later again

When the painful day Tony’s life came to an end

So I came clean so she can forgive, and lay him to rest

30 years later I was contacted by her on face book

She doesn’t look like she aged a day

And we met at his tombstone

And lowered our heads and prayed

Now she’s a grandmother with a swing on the porch

Watching the children play passing the torch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you were the third then you would have been left too

WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES

WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES

Do you still love me? or is this goodbye

 when you open your eyes, am I the one you see?

when  times gone by and you close your eyes, will you ever see me?

do you still think of him in some faded memory?

 when you close your eyes

 who do you see?

is it me or some other guy?

What you mean to me

I’ll be what you need me to be

One can never find

Another heart great as mine

So you reach out to take a hold

Through the window

A vision becomes a ghost

You see a man you used to know

The one you missed the most

But when it comes to time

Only a heart can unwind

And you make me a better man

To find the truth is to never understand

Searching the answer buried in the sand

Gee girl! You know what it is

You can’t take more than you give

AFTER ALL THIS TIME

AFTER ALL THIS TIME

After all this time

Do you still love this heart of mine

Can your heart find me in time

Am I the one you’re thinking of?

Do you ever feel the need?

To be holding next to me

Do you ever see?

Yourself loving me

You’ve built this stone wall

 Do you answer when I call

That’s kept you from me

I can hear your heart sing

Like it never did with him

Does he make you laugh?

Or wipe the tears, when you cry

It’s never over without goodbye

 Or Am I the reason why?

 When you hear my voice you start to cry

Am I the reason why

You never could say  goodbye

My heart is calling you

I want to love you like I used to

Do you love me still after all

And ever will

Your tears are calling me

Do I remind you who you used to be

And you know who I was

And you still loved me just because

Is my love more than him

Can you love me again?

 He can’t love you like a I do

After all I put you through

My love was always true

That was then and this is now

And I love you after all

 I hear your heart call to mine

I’m the one you left behind

The love you need to find

And I love you more than him

And I wouldn’t change a thing

Even if you wanted him

I don’t regret one moment

I’d love you all over again