I'M AN AGING DISASTER

 I'M  AN  AGING DISASTER

           five years since it all went bad

                     i'd tell you the truth

                    but its much to sad

                   two deaths and a cancer

                   is the short side of an answer

                   where as i'm already aging like a dad

                   depressions constant reminder

                  of what I don't have

                  I count the grey highlights of frost in my head

                 wondering if it was all worth the cost when i'm dead

                ten years ago i was considered to be young

                 now the difficulty of living my life has begun

                 the rage of reality one must occur

                 fighting to get back to the days of who we were

                 whoever said we age gracefully must be young

                 because I don't wish getting old on anyone

                 as I come to the end

                 I don't have any enemies but just friends

                whether it's the end or we go on forever

               treat everyone and everyday like it's your last one together

                   

THE STUTTERING STERN "adult poem"

     

     THE STUTTERING STERN 

      roses are red violets are blue 

 Gary sucks cock, and Howard does  too

Artie has gone and Fred has stayed

Robins laughs at Howard everyday

 Richard and Sal pull pranks every night

 Ralph is Howard's little bitch

 he's a cry baby and thats the way it is

so Howard runs his hands through Ralph  hair

,  Ralph licks Howard's everywhere

 howard does he does the best he can

 Howard's stutters like a retarded M''''AN

and Artie nods out from being high

Gary looks like a monkey in heat

and robin so fat she broke her seat

 there isn't a cock Howard hasn't blew

and KC has an IQ of a queer in a closet

  KC fucks hot chicks and he doesn't even love it

   and still carries Howard's pubic hair

if there's nothing else we have learned

 the newest wack packer is Howard  the stuttering Stern 

and just  like an addict on crack, at the dusk of dawn

when howards on the air, Ralph talks like a queer

 and Howard mocks a retard or two,

  Howard it brings out the retard in you

ZOMBIE IN ME

 ZOMBIE IN ME
                           i'm a zombie

                         do you know

                         have you seen

                        places  where I go

                        everything in between

                     half zombie half me

                          would you hold

                         if you knew

                        or would you blow me into

                        I can't explain the life i've lead

                       i'm  walking inside i'm dead

                        but I can feel i'm alive

                       sleep all day

                         and feed at night

                        i'm not a zombie

                  who drinks your blood

                  just a zombie looking for love

                   am I dead and not aware

                     can people see me

                    do they even know i'm there

                      if they could would they care

                       will i find a zombie

                     who feels the same as me

                         or will i leave this world

                       the same way I came in

                      start tomorrow over again
                       

IF YOU KNEW ME

             there was something about her I thought we were in  love

               we were just to young to understand

              she was a girl  but she felt like a man

              when she wore men's underwear

               it was like putting your hands in the sand

                a feeling so comfortable

               she knew it was to early for the truth to be  told

              there's many reasons if she was gay

             at her age she thought these feelings were wrong

             she found  someone else

             but they can never be alone

           could it be it's a phase

              a tomboy period of cross dressing

             was she the one

             is what there doing disgusting

            or was it the feeling of loving

            through my head over and over again

             I can't  dump her and walk away

          believe me I din't understand

            is there somthing wrong with her

           or could the problem persist in us

           can only a man and a woman be in love

           like an addict with tracks

         addiction to a feeling of love

             and she can never go back

           she can't live a lifestyle they want her to

          it's only been accepted as of later

          her family was excepting they forgave her

         for what? shes done nothing wrong

          I wonder if that night I wouldn't have treated you so bad

          would there be other choices you had

         giving time it could be a phase your going through

           or maybe I need to accept it's just you

          I wish everyone had the courage that you do

         

           you weren't the one I was with

             it's your fault the stories you believed

           did you really think you could change me

          you should have walked away and left before the end

          times we had  weren't all bad some were fun
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            this is now and that was then

            and we chat  from time to time

         things are different i'd say today

         I heard from friends that your gay

      i couldn't even recognize you

       then again i'm half blind

        i think I need to get with the changing times

        what we had is gone today

       the fun we had has gone away

        i'm glad i wasn't your first

        just in case i was your worst

         then again from what i've heard

        it would have to have been from birth

      the mist of it i still remember

      warming up in the  backseat late December

      what turned you gay was it me

       or were  you  just a child

        not knowing what to believe

        so you spent your life in denial

      if you think this poem is about you

        it probably is are you a guy or a girl

           just wondering which lifestyle you live

      its not about one confused in the closet

            its about everyone whose being bothered

     and laughed at on Howard Stern

     if you were friends to him

     give it time to heal  you will be again

     if he can be friends with Richard Simmons

       then he's forging the lifestyle your living

    For those of you who can't find the door to the closet

 break it down be proud make a stand and holler

or stay in the closet be scared and don't bother

OFFENSIVE TO SOME OFFEND NO ONE

 OFFENSIVE TO SOME,OFFENDING NO ONE
                   offensive in every word  you say

                   it offends me in every way  
 
                 i seen you on the t.v. the other day

                   couldn't seem to understand a word you say

                   i don't believe it  was the way you spoke

                 it was the words you said   did you feel misled

                  did you know words like that where it will go

               the world is changing what you say can't be undone

                 every word you say is offending someone

                 so rearrange your tone and always be calm

                     everyone has a little racism inside

                      we discriminate those who we do not understand

                     your culture makes you seem different than i am

                     we live in  a civil society  that doesn't mean to hurt

                  sometimes we say things that offend

                  without knowing the meaning of the words

                  and the tensions build so many times i've seen

                   out of anger we lash out and say things we don't mean

                    we must understand we are not one culture

                   black and white is like day and night

                      we go together we need one another

                   we can not change the past

            but we can change the future together

LOST IN FOREVER

LOST IN FOREVER
                  i'm in a world that no one is like me

                  nothing I do ever seems to excite me

                it seems  I can never win! then again

                 i  live in the guilt  of my sins

                 everyone's around me but i'm still alone

                  my punishment in life is to feel every stone

                  stuck in a world where i know no one

                   is there's others or am i all alone

                  waiting to break through this madness called my life

                  to understand these feelings i feel inside

                  so for now i'll live among your world

                  all alone and frozen in time standing still

Am I BITTER?

  Am I BITTER?
                         i'm not bitter the way you act

                          I am no quitter but I don't want you back

                          so stop the twitter i wont react

                         find another friend who can socially adapt

                         research yourself on wiki if need be

                        you tell your friends I want you back

                        girl your crazy and you make me laugh

                        so next time you tweet

                        think before you send

                       cause your so called friends

                       may not be your friends again

                       I tried but i'm so bitter all the trash you talk

                        using Facebook and saying it's my fault

                I don't need you I got hundreds of friends i've never met

                       I don't know everything

                      but I do know your one friend I wish i could forget

                       i'm so bitter with social media

                       wish things were the way they were

               if you wanted to dump her you wouldn't answer the door

                       when she called you'd hit ignore

                        but now your in my face 24 different ways

                       and what you put on the internet always stays

                        in the heat of the fingers you can't take it away

                       most things said you didn't mean to say

        so stop your tweeting you sound like Huey over eating

                     if someone doesn't know you they'll start believing

                     it cuts so deep that it never stops bleeding

                     all this hatred is just not needed

                    alls it takes is for one to believe you

                     i don't even know you I've never even met

                     but your the one I wish I could forget

                    stalking forever trash talking

        all because I confided in a  now I wish I would have accepted

                     when does it end even if I delete you

    i'll forever see you,i'm telling everyone I know don't believe you

                  now my so called friend is gone

                   trash talking was kind of fun

                  i'm still bitter maybe she wasn't the one
                               

THINKING BACK TO ME AND YOU

  THINKING BACK TO ME AND YOU
                        thinking back

                      how sweet love can be

                    a reflection of the time we spent

                    and how sweet you were to me

                  I still  remember back then

                to the first kiss we shared

                in the mist of the day

               and the nights cool air
 
             the memories we had

              some ended up in fights

             but you were always there

             making love and

          passion of pulling my hair

           the way two lovers  do

           helps keep my memory of you

          i listen when you talk

          I love the way you are

          writing i love you on the sidewalk

        i am yours and are mine

        and time after time

         sometimes i stare for hours while you sleep

          wondering what you see in me

          do you ever think of him

          when we make love

         am I the one your dreaming of

         or is it another guy in some fantasy

        I'll never forget holding her

        it's not like it used to be

        I only have moments

       it'll never be the way it used to be

       thinking back in time to our memories

       your the greatest memory i'll ever know

     don't walk away please don't go

THINGS CHANGE

 THINGS CHANGE
                   I was your flame

                  but that was then

                 shit happens is the way life is

                 and things change

                 then once again

                 your someone else s flame

                and another flame comes along

               in the beginning you burn at both ends

              when it comes to you i'll never burn again

              while   the flame changes the way you live

             just accept life in everything you do

            things change and we learn to forgive

            never a fact of the matter fact

            it's just the way we live

            as time goes by the flame burns lower

             just remember the flame only burns so long

             so always take each day

            one day at a time

            you burn so bright you got so much to give

            things change and we learn to forgive
                           
                             

A LIFE FOR A LIFE

 A LIFE FOR A LIFE
      shes got his baby blue eyes

      you can see his dimples when she smiles

     from the moment she left his arms

    a bond a promise she'll never be harmed

    a promise he kept  from that moment on

   until the demon attacked within

    remembering the promise over and over again

   her cancers  coming through the skin

 it's not fair to live a life she never chose

 and her first kiss she might never know

  how can a little princess with a heart of gold

  never get to see eight years old

 a decease thats gone from 0 to stage four

  i drop to my knees and pray to god

  if you knew her you wouldn't take her from us

    i'd give my life for hers

 just so she could go back to the way things were

 here is my dream for make a wish

 stop the chemo and make the pain go away

 I know it's life and it is what it is she never got to live

 it was a miracle a dream come true

   he took the pain away and gave the cancer to me

   and i watched as the angels came to take me away

   thinking back that was my greatest day

    as a parent to take your kids pain away

    it's been twenty years since that day

    and it hurt to watch another man give my baby away

    he was the dad he didn't have to be

    kind of strange how 20 years seems like a day

    and i never regretted a day

       just to see your first kiss, and the life you got to live
                                       
                                   

HELLO AGAIN

                                            hello gain
                              i still remember that first look on your face

                            the shape of your lips the things you say

                             it makes me laugh, when i think of you

                          the smile that helped the day through

'                       man! that day you blew my world away

                  i still remember the nights and those games we played

                         i can hear you yell out uno  as clear as day

                         even though your a million miles away

                         hello again I miss my friend

                         just wondering how you have been

                         i love the way you said the words you say

                         helps me make it another day

                         i can feel your touch like it was yesterday

                         why did you move so far away

                         you promised me many more days

                         now your lies are a million miles away

                        hello again I still pretend

                        i pretend you never went away

                        and night never turns to day

                                 if it's not surreal

                      then your not a million miles away

                     and you never broke the promise you made that day

                      so if that makes seem insane

                      watching the candle burn down on my favorite flame

                      then being insane aint so bad

                      it's a decease im glad to have

                   good bye my friend this flame has burned to thee end

                      and the memories are glowing further apart

                      but your flame will always grow inside my heart
                               

BACK TO WHERE I BELONG

                           BACK TO WHERE I BELONG
                       or were you there all along

                    I made love when i was young

                     years have gone by and my time has come

                     making love to you is like painting a Birmingham

                      thinking back to how we made love

                     the fantasy is far better than I ever was

                     what I see in you the world doesn't understand

                      in your arms I'm shaking and I can barely stand

                        me without you is like taking kryptinite from superman

                       there's so few words to say, i'm nothing without you

                         my heart beating so fast! then you take my breath away

                           hoping this ride home to eternity never ends

                              so god will bring you back to my arms again

                        your the middle of my heart like an apple core

                           I love you more than the day before

                            up all night wondering where you could be

                                so i'm calling all night on the phone

                                    pouring my heart out to you

                                      til the mornings dawn, then I fall a sleep

                                     you were there all along, lying next to me

                                      and if tomorrow never came

                                         did you say I love you, and without you

                                          I don't want to live another day

                                           would you be standing at heavens gate

                                            or would you forget about me and walk away
                               
                                 
                               

WHO'S LONELY NOW

  WHO'S LONELY NOW
                      who's lonely now

                      when each tear drop falls

                       who'll be the one

                      when you come to call

                     you don't mean to hurt me

                     it's just the way you are

                    I give my all with open arms

                    just can't turn back now

                     i've come to far

                     i'm just starting to realize

                     who the hell you are

                      am i'm sure it's right back at me

                      no i'm not this time

                      I think i've pushed you to far

                      i'm just a lonely guy living

                      in a lonely world

                     i'm crying in side

                     for another lonely child

                      just another kid

                      who fights the world

                      to become who he is

                      and if you leave me now

                      you'll lose the best part of me

                     which is the part of you

                     I just can't get over

                     then and now

                     i'll get better someday somehow

                     but not today

                     i'm thinking of you when I got nothing left to say

                     who's lonely now again someday somehow

                     I am! i'm my favorite part of you

                     is who I am and who'll i'll ever be

                    just tell me once your lost without me

                    everything I was is who I used to be

                     and i'm thinking of you my friend

                    day after day!time after time! again and again

                   who's lonely now is who we are

                   and what we've done, we've come to far

                   if you leave me now your the biggest heart in me
                                   
                               
                               
                           
                                                                         
                         
                                                                   

SHE WAS THE QUICK AND THE DEAD

  SHE WAS THE QUICK AND THE DEAD
                      shes was the quick and the dead

                   and she could have lived but she chose death instead

                      she didn't run but when it came to the law she fled

                       a kind of woman in the beginning

                       who you'd think she belonged to the east

                     after butting heads she heads out  west instead

                       shes was the quick and the dead

                         the kind of lady you'll never forget

                          she was the meanest woman who ever lived
  
                         she chews her chew and spits her spit

                         and the kind of taker,and thats the way she is

                          shes was the quick and the dead

                           killed a man when she was still a kid

                             she liked the ladies just like the men

                             and she broke their hearts

                         til she came back around again

                          she looked washed up and down and dirty

                          and thats a lot for a gunslinger who'll never hit 30

     they came from all around to see her dead lying on the ground

                    just like all the others first your quick then your dead

                             ask billy the kid who shot her in the head

                               now billy the kid is the quick and the dead

                              till the lawman shot him down

 gunmen never live long and they realize the life they live is wrong
                               

PLAYING THE GAME TONIGHT

 PLAYING THE GAME
                             life is a  passion that's dwelling down so fast

                             a burning flame that just wont last

                             loving her is the game, and i want to play it

                             all over again, and you broke my heart

                             sometimes the pain is to much to bare

                             when you find out she doesn't care

                             why does it always come down to this

                             in the end it's all the same

                            all over again we begin to PLAY!

                             this thing they call  the game

                             playing the game from end to start

                             playing the game is  who we are

                              we're playing the game   every other night

                         playing this game is wrong, alls we ever do is fight

                              but I play along playing the game

                              never knowing the score

                          playing this game tonight i'd never played before

                              and playing the game all night and up til four

                               playing the game, and playing it right

                               can't take the pain tonight  anymore

                               if I stop playing the game will begin the fight

                              it's all about you like it was before

                             so I stopped playing the game

                             and she walked out the door

                              turned around and tried to walk back in

                         I changed the locks i'll never play that game again
                                                   

SHE'S HIS EVERY DESIRE! SECRET ADMIRER

 SHE'S YOUR EVERY DESIRE! SECRET ADMIRER
                  she's so beautiful she's more beautiful today

                  her kindness so much defines her

                  she's an angel even to a stranger

                   and she'll make you smile

                     with the strangest things she'll say

                   even if she don't know you

                   your her secret admirer

                  you breath every breath of desire

                  the kindness she will show you

                   brings you closer everyday

                    the thing is you've never met her

                    still your feelings are getting stronger

                    but  deep down you still can't forget her

                     seems you can't be without her any longer

                     so you lay in bed and  write her

                     cause you have so many things to say

                     you know if you met her you'd excite her

                     and you have this feeling

                     you see her every single day

                     there's a chance that you know her

                     cause there's no way another can love her

                     if she could only read the words you say

                     could it be your best friend

                     whose felt your love in every stroke of the pen

                     but then again it's not so much the who

                      wondering more of the when

                      and is she having these thoughts back at him
                               

LIFE WALKED ALL OVER HER

LIFE WALKED ALL OVER HER
   she's bold as the winters day

  staring at the walls, all through the night

those  eyes cold as ice she's got nothing left to s

it's not her fault everything i've put her through

 don't blame her life turned her that way

 I walked all over her, and cheated day after day

 i was so bold,i didn't hide it and i threw it in her face

 you'd be cold too, if life turned you that way

 and walked on you , and told you so many alibi's

 f you've been through what she's been through

you to would have nothing left to say

 if life beat you down the way it beat her down

and i'm sorry to say the last boot was mine

when I met her she was so gentle and kind

 and when you step over her you'll notice

  she was walked on so many times

  so don't hate her, she's not to blame

  I've hurt her so many times,life turned her that way

  I too treated her so bad, and when I was through

  I walked away like so many guys before

 as she lays there and this time forward

 she won't be treated bad or walked on anymore

 and now she's an angel life turned her that way
                             

I HONESTLY LOVE YOU

I HONESTLY LOVE YOU
will i be the one you began to remember

watching as everything you loved

gone by 8:42 on September morning

as for everything i believed in gone without a warning

each and every race were blown off it's face on earth

everything you stood for came down to a single word

when the towers fells I swear I could hear you scream

it could be heard around the world

until I realized the one screaming was me

picking up the pieces one memory at a time

if I only had a clue i'd change the hands of time

who knew that would be our last goodbye

i still see the pain on your face

that morning when i made you cry

your tired of all my alibi's and my lying eyes

i can never take back the day i made you cry

I remember your last words

do you love I replied NO! then why

the last word why with tears falling down your face

fourteen years later you are the one I still remember

everyday I wake up at 8:42 and i see your face next to mine

then I wipe my eyes it was the illusion of me crying

I've never found love again or the feel of another woman

you were my first flame and you'll be my last

my heart will never begrudge all the pain that I've cost you

and i know you'll understand why i can never love again

i'm hopelessly in love with you

they talk about everyone who died in the building

what about those who were in the plane 

who will never be recognized again

a flame that no longer burns through turned to ashes

and I know everyone has to pay the cost

whose sins is she paying for

is it mine or all the ones who have died before

everyday i get up and remember

I love her more than the day before

and i'll never lose her love again

the fame burns out to early

will the memories will last forever

WHEN THE FLAME BURNS OUT

 WHEN THE FLAME BURNS OUT

          will i be the one you remember of

           you'll never love me as much as i love you

          and i'll never satisfy and be the flame

                 that  you feel inside it doesn't feel the same

             it was us before them and someday it'll be us again

              someday but not now we must breakdown and say goodbye

             i see the pain in your face you can no longer disguise

           all the alibi's and cheating eyes

           my heart couldn't begrudge all the pain you caused me to cry

            i'm hopelessly in love with you

              a flame that no longer burns through

              and it's time to pay the cost

              remember the love we felt

               and never lose the love that's lost

           you were my first flame will you be my last

             the fame burns out to early

                 will the memories ever last

and in the end all the alibi's and

        the lies I can't disguise
               

YOUR SO GONE YOU NEVER LOVED ME ALL ALONG

  YOUR SO GONE  YOU NEVER LOVED ME ALL ALONG

                    your so gone i  just can't remember what we were fighting for

                    watching you  leave through the hall

                     i couldn't stop you from walking out the door

                     i'll never forget you were  the  only one

                     i can't pretend i don't love you anymore

                     seem like it was over before it ever began

                    i never seemed to pick myself off the floor

                    i just can't understand why you walked out the door

                     your so gone you forgot what you were staying

                     just can't make it  another day

                     pretending you  didn't have nothing left to say

                    your so gone or were you gone all along
 
                    and can't pretend i don't love you anymore

                    it's been so long i don't remember what we were fighting for
   
                    going through my mind what i didn't say

                     i'd give anything to hold you another day

                     your so gone don't walk away
 
                      the pain i go through every single day

                      your so gone i can no longer beg you to stay

                     and i don't know how to stop you from walking away

                    through the hall  and out the door

                    i can't let you hurt me anymore

MOMMA I'M COMING HOME

MOMMA I’M COMING HOME
Momma I’m coming home

Momma  I’m all alone
the Oates I never sown
and those days are hear and gone

you lift me when I start to fall
it feels like I never loved at all
Momma I’m coming home 
without you i'm all alone

every single time i remember your gone

I’m not along for the ride …yet

And in the faded air I hear goodbye

Momma I can barely see you don't forget

Running through a bed of rose

Like you loved to do……….

Mamma you never told me how tough life was

Were you trying to save me..?Or just because

Mamma I’m coming home I’d had enough

Of thoughtless people I can see through

Momma why does it always end in goodbye

Momma I’m coming home …momma I’ve tried

No I’m not all alone momma don’t cry

It’s starting to rain hurting you is driving me insane

When will you come back again?

Momma where have you gone

Momma….I’m not coming home …yet

FAST CARS FAST TIME SO LONG MY FRIEND GOODBYE

         FAST CARS FAST TIMES SO LONG MY FRIEND GOODBYE

You don’t know me but you’re a friend of mine

It seemed The faster you shined the faster you’d go

There are so much more of you that we never got to know

Like your love of family and the passion of your only child

Even though your Life seemed to move so quickly

Paul walker my friend all the while

 You never for a moment lost your smile

So much energy in every second of your movies

We’re all your family and morning you has only began

VIN and the rest of fast and furious family

Tell stories of the great times you had

As they stop with a tearful as stories turn to sad

 They are finding it hard without you to move on

There’s not a day they don’t shed a tear

Everyone @ every time @ everywhere

You’re loved by millions everywhere you go

I must step back and catch the breath I take

Seeing you again in all the movies that you made

But as a friend I pray for your family most of all

Losing a loved one is like hitting a wall

As their lives will never be the same

But for you they still get up over and over again

Paul walker when it comes to you not enough words can ever be said

We have the memories of your movies

To us you’ll never be dead

And someday they’ll make a movie about you

And every great thing you got to do

Most of all the great friends you met

You've made a mark on their lives they’ll never forget

This is a poem written by a fan

You would have to know and love Paul to understand

Paul walker my friend R.I.P

We’ll continue your life in all your movies we see

Some lives are almost over and others have just begun

Cherish every moment because you never know which will be your last one

ONE DAY AT A TIME

 ONE DAY AT A TIME
she stood at the top of the stairs crying

 your becoming your father

i'm thinking cool I love that man

now shes gone it took me 30 years to understand

I have an addictive personality

i'm addicted to everything bad is my reality

don't be sad i'll be ok i'll be me again some day

assume the risk there's no humility

i'm still the man i used to be

look close inside of me

there's a hole that you can see' through
'
there's a light at the end where i can live my life again

there's a place i can go

to talk to people wow! finally someone who knows

now you need to tell someone you hit rock bottom

there's a group where you can tell them your problem

 they been there but you don't know where you are

maybe this has gone to far

but your living your life inside this bubble

you know it''s no good and your headed for trouble

we're hear to listen not now don't talk just make a decision

is your life out of control have you hurt everyone you know

stole pawned and done everything beyond

then it's for you to hear this story of mine

how i made her cry . i was F'' UP and it hurt i'm not gonna lie

she never forgave me it was never the same between her and I

there's nothing in the world than losing your soul mate

and if I didn't hurt her would we still be together today

it took till ten minutes ago yo figure that out

I now have figured out what y purpose in life is all about

everyone i ever loved i shit

it's my own affliction that i never had a son

how could i put him through what i have done

i can't blame no one for what i've done

i don't remember the day it all begun

when your high everyday is the same

you feel this disaster and a wall of shame

and don't count me out i'll be back again

IT'S BEEN AWHILE SO HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

 IT'S BEEN AWHILE SO HOW HAVE YOU BEEN
mom hows dad it's been a year now

and were all still feeling sad

I you both had to leave us and go

but for our reasons why we'll never know

i know some day we'll see you again

but it's taking so long we get sad now and then

yes mom were getting by

but time to time we still cry

life is going so fast you never know which day will be my last

there's been times when i wanted to take my life

but I can never seem to find the knife

maybe life's really not that bad

you make me believe this addiction I can beat

and someday again I can be me

every now and then I wonder how i'll go

will it be cancer a question no one knows

well it's been awhile since I seen the day

that you went away

it's been awhile how have you been

I can't wait for you to come back again

LIFE ON THE ROCKS

 LIFE ON THE ROCKS
life on the rocks

being bullied by the tough guys

they think their some super jocks

they only bully you cause their life suck

your so much more

and the ones that love you will always adore

when life's on the rocks

get off the floor

so you find yourself addicted

and the decision to live has become conflicted

kick this affliction and get off the ground

cause your families no good when your not around

lifes on the rocks

hes cheating still not home at 12 o clock

don't stress your not alone

at some point hes gotta come home

so you put the gun to your head

but you know your children can't find you dead

now for some comes the end

 giving in to life on the rocks

there you go looking down at yourself lying dead

and everything you know

walking by shaking their heads

what a waste they talk will there be good things said

will you leave this world and go to the next

now you want to live

life on the rocks you want to fix

and now your stuck between life and death

there's no suicide in heaven

god ask you how many people you hurt

by causing your death

if you could count more than seven

so remember when life's on the rocks

is a reason but just not enough

rather you been bullied or plagued by addiction

whatever your affliction is no reason

 no matter your depression caused by the  sad seasons

if you lose to life on the rocks

heaven will not answer your knock

DON'T SAY GOODBYE

     DON'T SAY GOODBYE

WHOSE THE NEW GUY IN TOWN

I SEE HOW HE CAUGHT YOUR EYE

I CAN HEAR YOUR HEART START TO POUND

WHEN EVER HES AROUND

IF YOUR GONNA LEAVE DON'T SAY GOODBYE

I DON'T WANT TO KNOW CAUSE I'LL START TO CRY

IT SEEMS AS THOUGH EVERY TIME HES AROUND

YOU TWIRL YOUR HAIR AND YOU STOP TO STARE

WHEN SOMEONE NEW CAME TO TOWN YOU NEVER CARED

YOU SURE HAVE CHANGED THESE DAYS

I CAN HEAR THE SOFT CRACKLE IN YOUR VOICE

I KNOW CAUSE YOU WHISPERED TO ME THAT WAY

I USED TO LAUGH WHEN YOU CRACKLED IN EVERYTHING YOU SAY

THAT WAS SO LONG AGO

WHEN YOU LOVED ME BACK IN THE DAY

YOU TWIRLED YOUR HAIR LAUGHED AND HELD ME EVERYWHERE

IF YOUR GONNA GO DON'T SAY GOODBYE

LETS ACT LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW

TELLING OUR FRIENDS YOUR MISSING

I LEFT THE LIGHTS ON TILL THE LAST ONES DONE

MY ANSWERING MACHINE SAID HONEY COME HOME

I'M TO STUBBORN AND PROUD TO ADMIT I'M ALL ALONE

AND IF YOU CALL AND LEAVE A MESSAGE DON'T SAY GOODBYE

I PLAYED YOUR MESSAGE ABOUT A MILLION TIMES

BUT THIS TIME I KNEW IT WAS THE END

YOU SAID I CAN'T TELL YOU WHY

AND ENDING WITH GOODBYE OVER AND OVER AGAIN

I CALLED HER BACK AND SAID I WAS HAPPY FOR HER

AND I'D BE HAPPY TO LIE TO HER AGAIN JUST TO HEAR HER VOICE

 SO I LIED AGAIN AND SAID THAT SOMEONE CAME ALONG

I KNOW I SHOULDN'T LIE I KNOW IT'S WRONG

I JUST COULDN'T TELL HER I'M ALL ALONE

AND NO ONE WILL EVER COME ALONG

IT CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH AFTER I LIED

FOR THE FIRST TIME FOR THE LAST TIME I SAID DON'T SAY GOODBYE

DON'T SAY GOODBYE UNLESS YOU CAN TELL ME WHY