Tuesday, July 26, 2016



trying to be humble and kind
before I lose my mind
try to keep sober and clean
before it all comes to an end
she'll never come back to me again
but she'll always be a friend
the way you were to me
like a blind man I couldn't see
with so may fucked uped days
so many years to find my way
I can now remember,like it was yesterday
I now realize before I hated you
I was so in love with you
try to stay humble before you find
the hearts you broke and the things you realize
walked away and left you behind
I don't blame you cause your with him
the memories are alls thats left
where were you when she needed
when she crying I was getting high
I walked away we she needed me the most
I was lost in time gone like a ghost
and I broke her heart of the one you loved the most
back in time if only I could only start again
and say the thngs I should'\ve said
and find a way for her to trust again
and maybe she wouldn't be with him
everyday I'd treat hear better
and time to time tell her in a letter
but thats a memory of something that will never be
but shes been gone for so long in time
if I was only humble and kind
but decades have moved on
you went your way I went mine
I wonder if you think of me from time to time
but now I got mine and you got yours
maybe another place in time

      I would've been humble and kind

Wednesday, January 13, 2016



A birth and a death

and the loneliness is all that's left

with the pain and the tears

still lingers after 25 years

to some he's faded to just a name

for me I remember him all the same

the time that's gone hasn't eased the pain

a sadness I still see in his fathers eyes

like the one I seen at his final goodbye

through the years so many days have past

and that day in December will forever last

god called upon one of his favorite sons

gone before his precious life ever begun

as I brushed my hand across the coffin

that was no bigger than a box made of wood

from the hands where Jesus stood

like a fog I couldn't see I felt a final breeze

Julian I'll soon see but for now rest in peace