WHEN YOU CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

 WHEN YOU CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE

  The sharpest knife str8 cut to my wrist

  It is the final voyage on my bucket list

I’ve live more than some less than most

The time when you know it’s time to go

Is when death sends down someone you know

They take your hand and tell you it’s your time

 And some visits from death aren’t kind

Seems the better person you were on earth

The uglier the death and the more you hurt

Passing from earth to heaven is a journey on its own

The pain of crossing over is like the passing kidney stone

So when you’re on your death bed and the end of stage four

The chemo and pains so bad to where you can’t take anymore

Knowing that there’s no more pain on the other side of the door

CRAZY OR NOT! I CAN'T TELL

CRAZY OR UNWELL !I CAN’T TELL

                  

I hear a knock at the door, I peek off to the side then, I run and hide

I can’t let you see me, so I go in the corner and cry

What if you can see through me what am I feeling inside

If I don’t do things the same way, things are going to go bad

People think I’m crazy, what if I’m normal, has everyone gone mad

Everything’s going through my head at the same time

 Life has become a test I’m afraid of the knowledge that I posses

Will lead to provisions of someone’s death I have to pull over and duck

 People are following me, with these feelings I’ll never be free

I have to go now, I see you I don’t understand

 Why are you watching me through the web cam?

So now you can see who I am, everytime I answer the phone

 My brain begins to scan, crazy or not this is who I am

BROKEN PROMISE

          BROKEN PROMISE

A broken promise is a violation of trust to be unanimous,

I thought I seen you for a second, then realized I didn't

Everything I've done to you, never can be forgiving

I’m going through the stages of life, day by day

The life I’m no longer living, why can’t I just walk away

And cut my loses, maybe it’s all those lines that I’ve crossed

Remembering back when you appeared in mist from that stormy dew

The night I met you in a cocktail bar, it took all I can do

You were standing there all alone, that much was true

All the best times in my life, don’t add up to the nights with you

Like the ones when I’m holding you near, on a night with the sky so clear

Then came the night that I tore that all apart

Risk everything without a reason, I broke your heart, a broken ring

The ring was a broken bond, back when we breathed as one

I didn’t love her, she didn’t mean a thing, don’t recall her name

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Just a stupid fling, if I could change the hands of time, I’d never do it again

If it takes my whole life, I’ll do what ever it takes, everything I can to fix my mistakes

All the pain that I've put you through, I will not rest till I find my way back to you

ME AGAIN!

          ME AGAIN!

Who’s life am I living,to sacrifice upon the dead is to be never forgiving

I know this place spaced is a world that isn't mine, over time I watch the hands move slowly

as I am waiting for a singletary  chance to change the hands of time

Ticking of the clock to unwind, stairing at the wall day after day

Time stops moving, I’m in a state of mind, lost in my own provision

Time to time, I search the world from beyond, for the simplest of signs

A curious dot on the wall of some kind, something to spark the hands of time

Then the times you feel like a cowboy, in a world before his time

I’m a lonely rebel in a space that’s not mine, the coarse side of the wall Cuts my skin deeper than all

 makes me quietly cry  as the coarse of the wall turns my skin terminusly  dry,a feeling of oblivious

 without a reason why, a loss of direction , a sense of apathy I haven't experience since a child

inside i'm a hopeless romantic waiting to get out, can I ever be me,and remembering the compassion I

 used to see, searching for the sparkle of life that used to be inside of me

I slowly find myself crawling tenuously out of my skin, I stand alone wondering

When will I ever crawl back into my own skin again?

THIS TIME

              THIS TIME

You can go through life pretending everything’s alright

Acting a fool I think I’m going crazy and starting fights

 But somehow find your way back to me! Not this time

So you say, and someday you’ll realize I’m here to stay

Then maybe you can see through all this trouble and break away

You say!  What the hell are you thinking! Some night! No not this time

You start to cry! What should I do? Should I cry to! So I just hold you

 I just want is to love you! Then you say those words to me! Not this time

They cut right through till the words hurt from you, then you throw salt on my pain

Some night! No not this time, breaks my heart, never again say a thing

I walk to remember! How we met on that cold September

 This time! Your gone, I know this time, it’s in the sound of your voice

Sleep on it, think awhile before you make this choice you’re hurting me, but it seems!

You know this isn't right, I miss baby I’m all alone, can’t we give it a try

Are we really that far gone! Girl I really think you’re wrong! This time

It will be different I promise! I’ll do what you want I’ll follow what you say

Tell me who you want me to be! All the things that bothers you about me

Come on! This time I’ll make a change I’ll be the man you want I know I can

This time! Your eyes will light up when I walk in a room! Without you I’m doomed

I’ll change the way that you see! So much! You’ll realize you can’t live without me

This time! You’ll see I’m yours and your mine, it’s going to work this time!!

SPIRITS OF WOLFE LAKE

         SPIRITS OF WOLFE LAKE

Every now and then, I close my eyes and I see him again

 I go to the place my best friends life had came to an end

When the night darkens, ripples splashing everywhere

I can hear the Wolfe of death whistle in the night’s air

If I look on the right day I can see his canoe rising to the top of the lake

So I jumped in to save my friend, I saw him swimming out to the deep end

I went to the place where he would go, getting swallowed by a under toe

I swore as I was swirling down, I saw dead people reaching for me all around

So I come up for air above the ground, all around the wolves howl their hound

FAITH IN ME

 FAITH IN ME

An angel appeared in front of me from the sky

I ask why me there is far better men than i

The angel answered your goodness is inside

And I promised to her I’d try to be a better guy

Go to church and help the ones in need

Try to bring out that goodness in me

I knew it was coming the devil whispered in my ear

Come on the good time is coming the parties near

I looked up and ask for the angel to get me out of here

I turned around and walked out, fait will subside all my fears

Now I live my life one day at a time

Never taking for granted what has become mine